....on a lonely night!

she broke his heart
misbehaved,fought without any reason
but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
for days and days,the guilt daunted on her mind
she tried to drink her pain away
a little at a time
but she never could get drunk enough
to get him off her mind
until the night....
the suffering was destined
it was self invited
nobody could match her ill luck
she was lost inside
breaking as every moment passed
braving everything with a smile....

one could find her with her face down in the pillow
with tears making it soaking wet
falling apart as the moments passed
and clinging to his picture for dear life
wishing for loads of success and luck
on one of the loneliest nights
which was as mysterious as her soul
hiding so many feelings......

the 4:00 am conversation

she:did u notice that i am talking to you for the past 4 hours  :)

he: but i'm feeling like we just started..
she: mujhe bhi nai pata chala 4 hours kaa..... 4 hours=240 minutes =14400 sec  omg! 
he: haha i can talk my whole lyf like this..try kare :p
she: hehe
he: are u feeling sleepy?
she: its already 4...sleeepongi nahi... toh kal wakoongi kaise?
he: toh u the goes to the beds and take the sleepz now ...okiez
she:  :)
she: u also sleeeeeeeeep
he: neend nahi hai....will see some movie
she: chup chap soja huh :@! gudnight
he:ok gud night..bye :(

how does she know??

How does she know that you love her?
How does she know she’s yours?
How does she know that you really really truly love her…?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted

You must remind her everyday! 

Well do you leave a little note to tell her

she is on your  mind ?
Do u send her Yellow flowers when the sky is gray?

you’ve got to show her you need her

Don’t treat her like a mind reader

Each day do something to need her To make her believe ,you love her!

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know that true love is true....


Well do u take her out dancin’ just so u can hold her close?                         Dedicate a song with words in just for her? Ohhh!

Will you wear her favourite color  just so you can match her eyes?

 or Rent a private tent by the fire's glow???

Her heart will be yours forever if something everyday you will show J

That's how she will know that you are her love!

the guilt

its 3:45 am and i am up.....as i peep through my hostel window, the roads appear as lonely as my heart tonight...turning back the pages of the book of life,the feeling of guilt captures me.....the questions like "was it really me who was responsible? , why did i do that?" pop up and create turmoil within me...i find myself absolutely clueless as to where i am heading to.......all i can see is darkness......

inspite of all this, some special ones fill my life with a ray of hope....guiding light they are....they force me to believe that no matter what every cloud has a silver lining....and everything is gonna be alright...all i have to do is decorate my face with a smile :) 

 the 20 long years have made me a "fake smile" expert..while though he makes me look at a life from a different angle which makes me believe that there is something worth living for....that its not only me who is the sufferer...life is not that bad and that i just think too much and that's the time when i feel i just cant do without him....can't let him go.....Sometimes, I just need to talk to him, but I just lie to myself;i miss him and tell myself,"no, you can't, you bloody stone heart!" 

some mistakes just make people so out of reach...the guilt of making the wrong decisions stays for ever!

P.S. i love u

What a beautiful difference one single life made!! i wish u were still there with me..Thousands of miles separate us now...bt dats the rule of life....u land up here,finish the job the god has loaded you with...n then go bak to ur creator.....y did u finish ur job so fast……..cudnt u stay for much longer……??? :( May be destiny had some different plans…

Nyways u are turning 21 today…..wow! bada ho gaya bacha J party hard dude! Rock the heaven…party on the clouds …bundle of wishes will reach u soon…my treat is pending n ur present too….  :P
hope u don’t miss me too much……I have learnt to live without you……accepted the fact that life goes on and on……bas no more senti dialogs……here is a big cake for u sweetheart :D

hope m the first one to wish you :)

RIP

*hugs*

smiling is infectious!

smiling....an amazing behavior,one we demonstrate well before we speak

did you smile today???
today give a stranger one of your smiles...it might be the only sunshine he sees all day
Smiling is infectious,You catch it like the flu...When someone smiled at me today,I started smiling, too.A single smile, just like mine Could travel round the earth....

never frown even when you are sad...coz u never know who is falling in love with your smile :)

this poem made me smile even sitting here at my computer..!!! yes...a smile costs nothing,but gives much.it enriches those  who receive , without making poorer those who give.it takes but a moment...and brightens the day :)


Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

ps-post inspired by someone who wants to see me smile :)

my obsession with weird creatures...!!!

it all started wen i was very young.....unlike most of the kids who are afraid of creatures like lizards,frogs,snakes etc and hate their sight, i was different....bachpan ka sapna tha......that i fine day i would tame a tiger...have a ride on it....so far  it is unfulfilled...recently  a sudden urge to get a crocodile and tame it struck my mind....bt it is nearly impossible :(
below are the few creatures that amuse me the most.....ahh me and my obsession with them...

the cute chameleon brothers 

the graceful movement of filling its tummy

the newly born crocodiles...

the froggy.........adorable!!!!

the cutest *lucky charm*

this blue n orange snake looks so pretty with green in the background...............blends beauty and danger in just the right proportions!!!

last but not the least
this beautiful creature...how wonderfully god has painted it with red purple paints

romantic lazy mirchi

so here i put forward the story of three *studs*....

one 24X7 romantic...other lazy to the core...n last but not the least me who is a perfect taurean.....
our lovely "LILA (lost in love of A)" has surrendered her *tann mann dhann* to her "to be " prince charming"...she finds positive in every damn thing no matter how weird the situations may turn out...the romantic girly lives in  her own dreamy world of "happily ever after" and waits....waits waits n waits.....lets c how many frogs will she kiss before making the final landing  to the "perfect two" scene...

coming to our lazy lad... *guggu* for whom the greatest pleasure of the world lies in eating and Zzzzz......there is no love in her life...her Moto :

bt we know that something is kaala in the daal....chupa rustam she is! ek din we will surely find out the reason behind her frequent deactivation of FB :P

now about *teekhi mirchi* (the twitter name)...!!!!

teekhi in her behaviour n mirchi in her attitude....who believes that coffee,chocolates n MEN.....the richer the better!!! 

she loves revealing other's secrets. ...but she is not a khuli kitaab...she has a secret lover who is just a friend according to her.now lets see who opens this kitaab....

to be continued........

PS-thanx for reading till end :)

how many frogs do i need to kiss before landing on my prince charming?

It isn't easy. The old saying is true, you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. Hopefully, of course, you find out what frogs they are before you start  kissing too many of them.

Everyone is looking for their shining consort,the prince charming with whom to spend their lives happily ever after.but only few people know what to look for in a partner that they end up completely disillusioned and heart broken.happiness in marriage becomes a myth

  But the right person is always in reach! a person to whom we can surrender our heart safely....alas! Sometimes we are too blind to see that special one!so never give up...ever!

Frogs only turn into princes in fairy tales.in real life,they just stay frogs. “in journey of life,find someone as normal as u” *priceless*


I would love to find my prince charming...have him lift me up 
on his white horse ...no not white horse...m allergic to horses....on his Lamborghini and we ride away into the sunset..

Stop existing Start living !

last saturday i spent hard earned money and went to watch "zindagi na milegi dobara " in the hope that for a while it will take me away from my life. Into a life we all dream of having.n yes! it did....it truly lived upto my expectations.it would not b wrong to say that it was more of an experience....an experience to be cherished,an experience to b surely experienced atleast once in a lifetym..it is said dat if earth has a life period of 24 hours ,then human life is just 10seconds old,so it is not at all advisable to waste this precious present cribbing. it shud b lived  fully n take on all the surprises with full enthusiasm as it brings along.here i put forward few "things to do" list(not completely my words though)  that one should do for sure  in this lovely life :

Love.

Perhaps the most important. Fall in love, if you aren't already. If you have, fall in love with your partner all over again. Abandon caution and let your heart be broken. Or love family members, friends, anyone -- it doesn't have to be romantic love. Love all of humanity, one person at a time.

Get outside.

Don't let yourself be shut indoors. Go out when it's raining. Walk on the beach. Hike through the woods. Swim in a freezing lake. Bask in the sun. Play sports, or walk barefoot through grass. Pay close attention to nature. 

Savor food. 

  Don't just eat your food, but really enjoy it. Feel the texture, the bursts of flavors. Savor every bite. If you limit your intake of sweets, it will make the small treats you give yourself even more enjoyable.

Create a morning ritual. 

Wake early and greet the day. Watch the sun rise. Out loud, tell yourself that you will not waste this day, which is a gift. You will be compassionate to your fellow human beings, and live every moment to its fullest. Stretch or meditate or exercise as part of your ritual. Enjoy some coffee.

Take chances. 

We often live our lives too cautiously, worried about what might go wrong. Be bold, risk it all. Quit your job and go to business for yourself (plan it out first!), or go up to that girl you've liked for a long time and ask her out. What do you have to lose?

Follow excitement. 

Try to find the things in life that excite you, and then go after them. Make life one exciting adventure after another

Find your passion.

Make your living by doing the thing you love to do. First, think about what you really love to do. There may be many things. Find out how you can make a living doing it. It may be difficult, but you only live once.           

Get out of your cubicle. 

Do you sit all day in front of computer, shuffling papers and taking phone calls and chatting on the Internet. Don't waste your days like this. Break free from the cubicle environment, and do your work on a laptop, in a coffee shop, or on a boat, or in a log cabin. This may require a change of jobs, or becoming a freelancer. It's worth it.

Turn off the TV. 

How many hours will we waste away in front of the boob tube? How many hours do we have to live? Do the math, then unplug the TV. 

Pull away from Internet. 

You're reading something on the Internet right now. And, with the exception of this article, it is just more wasting away of your precious time. You cannot get these minutes back. Unplug the InternetRight now! And go and do something.

Rediscover what's important. 

Take an hour and make a list of everything that's important to you. Add to it everything that you want to do in life. Now cut that list down to 4-5 things. Just the most important things in your life. This is your core list. This is what matters. Focus your life on these things. Make time for them

Exercise.

Get off the couch and go for a walk. Eventually try running. Or do some push ups and crunches. Or swim or bike or row. Or go for a hike. Whatever you do, get active, and you'll love it. And life will be more alive.                                              

 Be positive.

 optimism is what is needed to lead a perfect life.m optimistic.although it has bever helped me but still has becum a habit now!

Open your heart. 

Is your heart a closed bundle of scar tissue? Learn to open it, have it ready to receive love, to give love unconditionally. If you have a problem with this, talk to someone about it. And practice makes perfect.

Face your fears.

 What are you most afraid of? What is holding you back? Whatever it is, recognize it, and face it. Do what you are most afraid of. Afraid of heights? Go to the tallest building, and look down over the edge. Only by facing our fears can we be free of them.  

When you suffer, suffer. 

Life isn't all about fun and games. Suffering is an inevitable part of life. We lose our jobs. We lose our lovers. We lose our pets. We get physically injured or sick. A loved one becomes sick. Learn to feel the pain intensely, and really grieve. This is a part of life -- really feel the pain. And when you're done, move on, and find joy. 

Slow down. 

Life moves along at such a rapid pace these days. It's not healthy, and it's not conducive to living. Practice doing everything slowly -- everything, from eating to walking to driving to working to reading. Enjoy what you do. Learn to move at a snail's pace.

 Touch humanity.

 Get out of your house and manicured neighborhoods, and find those who live in worse conditions. Meet them, talk to them, understand them. Live among them. Be one of them. Give up your materialistic lifestyle.  

Talk to old people. 

There is no one wiser, more experienced, more learned, than those who have lived through life. They can tell you amazing stories. Give you advice on making a marriage last or staying out of debt. Tell you about their regrets, so you can learn from them and avoid the same mistakes. They are the wisdom of our society -- take advantage of their existence while they're still around.

Learn new skills. 

Constantly improve yourself instead of standing still -- not because you're so imperfect now, but because it is gratifying and satisfying. You should accept yourself as you are, and learn to love who you are, but still try to improve -- if only because the process of improvement is life itself.

Take mini-retirements. 

Don't leave the joy of retirement until you are too old to enjoy it. Do it now, while you're young. It makes working that much more worth it. Find ways to take a year off every few years. Save up, sell your home, your possessions, and travel. Live simply, but live, without having to work. Enjoy life, then go back to work and save up enough money to do it again in a couple of years.

Watch sunsets, daily. 

One of the most beautiful times of day. Make it a daily ritual to find a good spot to watch the sunset, perhaps having a light dinner while you do so.  

Break out from ruts. 

Do you do things the same way every day? Change it up. Try something new. Take a different route to work. Start your day out differently. Approach work from a new angle. Look at things from new perspectives. 

Laugh till you cry. 

Laughing is one of the best ways to live. Tell jokes and laugh your head off. Watch an awesome comedy. Learn to laugh at anything. Roll on the ground laughing. You'll love it.

Lose control. 

Not only control over yourself, but control over others. It's a bad habit to try to control others -- it will only lead to stress and unhappiness for yourself and those you try to control. Let others live, and live for yourself. And lose control of yourself now and then too.


Cry. 

Men, especially, tend to hold in our tears, but crying is an amazing release. Cry at sad movies. Cry at a funeral. Cry when you are hurt, or when somebody you love is hurt. It releases these emotions and allows us to cleanse ourselves. Make an awesome dessert. 
I like to make warm, soft chocolate cake. But even berries dipped in chocolate, or crepes with ice cream and fruit, or fresh apple pie, or homemade chocolate chip cookies or brownies, are great. This isn't an every day thing, but an occasional treat thing. But it's wonderful.

Be in the moment.

Instead of thinking about things you need to do, or things that have happened to you, or worrying or planning or regretting, think about what you are doing, right now. What is around you? What smells and sounds and sights and feelings are you experiencing?