...because it hurts :|

last week was the most worst week of my life ( as far as i remember) .... i know this is not the correct platform to exhibit my emotions...but still i continue to tell my tumbling thoughts about life...life has never treated me the way i expect...my life is full of problems...horrible n suffocating...i have been constantly hurt by my loved ones(not intentionally though)....have seen my trust being shattered into pieces.. witnessed the most unexpected phase and the list is endless....thoughts like "life cant b fair to everyone" and "isi ka naam zindagi hai" starts haunting me and at the same time consoling me....i cry a lot at times and at this time i find pillow the most comforting friend as it is the only one who is always there n  to whom i can give *tight wali hugs* (which is much needed at that time)...... n then i remember the big inspiring lecture which my mom usually gives me when i start cursing life.....it goes on like this .... 

"When life slaps you in the cheek, turn the other and let it strike you again. Never lose hope, you have to fight....fight back...dishum dishum (including the sound effects) Life is suffocating. It will choke you, thinking that is has won something. Maybe it has, but it can never, ever lay hands on your hope. Did anyone ever tell you life would be easy? We all have problems in our lives, every single one of us.....cursing life is not an option...."

after giving such a longggg philosophical lecture she continues...

"Come on I wont bug you with a philosophy lecture. I hate them. But its true. Life is full of problems period!!! So we often tend to avoid the problems. My Question is Why??? If we know the problems wont stop, then why to avoid. Just be prepared."

n the above golden words leave me speechless n ponder ....Life is too ironic to fully understand. It takes sadness to know what happiness is. Noise to appreciate silence & absence to value presence....
i all over again want to b happy and live each and every moment of my life....want to search the cheerful girl lost in me....n the search continues......trying to live with a hope that next chapter of my life would b a happy one ~~~~~

Painting of Emotions!!

this post of mine portrays various stages of love... although first love remains forever <3 .....penning down a girl's journey through love and proposals...
A girl starts facing a bunch of  admirers much before she can understand what does this all mean...yes We actually  live in a world where a 4 year old girl could be raped too..,...sad truth!!!I remember my childhood days , I used to cry badly when i felt any guy is taking interest in me...i could not take lightly even if anyone stared at me for long...that tym ny guy doing so wud be my greatest enemy....how silly i was :P

A girl when reaches her sweet  16 th year ,  has hopes of a fairy world ,she thinks that every guy has one love and every girl loves a single guy , people do marry only the ones who are their first love...She trusts blindly , her cheeks go red when you call her beautiful , she has butterflies in her belly even at the sight of her one n only crush
 i love you only means to her  you would marry her.

who does forgets his/her first love..we do silly things ..don't we ? Its a stage where each guy and each girl gets into a relationship with no desire to cheat or be cheated..But the world they live in is a illusionary world...they are unaware of how cruel the world is...It slowly starts fading away , we realize we are growing up , we realize its not love....and we move on in our live...Years later , we feel such innocent love was it....such crazy things we did...But luckly it remains with us as sweet memories.....

 

The first time someone breaks our heart...Doesn't  life just comes to an end...Didn't we all felt like giving up life...Always being surrounded by family an friends who love us with all their heart ...And when someone you trusted with all your heart , leaves you without giving a reason ...Don't we all feel disgusted...But , things do change..we grow up....

A girl passes through this stage too…the feeling of guilt…the feeling of hiding things from parents,guilt of telling lies at home,guilt of falling in love with a wrong guy,of first kiss,no matter it remains forever in our heart…I feel the guilt when I know someone loves me truly but I cant love them back.

yes , we girls still believe in love...No matter , you broke our heart , you played with our feelings , we still have faith the right guy would come on a white horse and take us away to the Castle...we believe in fairy tales long after we grow up...

there comes the right guy....dreams do come true...fairy tales are not mere stories...we doubt the one who loves us truly...as we have been through wrong guys to finally have you in arms..You come in our lives to make us forget all the pain the world gave us....we feel complete with you...The search here ends....

A girl reaches this stage when the most good 
looking guy can't take her heart away because the one she gave her heart is the best man in this world...No proposals can ease her heart ..no words can touch her heart cause she has decided to give her life to the one she loves....
this is all about love n proposals in a girl's life !!!